LIVEALITTLE

Karen's second short film is now done, dusted and submitted. It was a surely a learning experience especially since a major editing portion of it was done in Sydney while I was in Darwin. "We R Family" was originally going to be a narrative from the perspective of a solemn, pensive pup who didn't feel like he belonged. For whatever reason, I didn't feel committed to the script and changed it the day before editing on the flight to Sydney. Now it is about the ruminations of a single mom with 7 children (puppies). I've dedicated it to my mom and all the single parents in the world. I hope others understand it as well. I tried to keep this film simple particularly since my film last year was convoluted and a tad confusing. Festival details: http://www.fistfulloffilms.com.au/

Since I was a bit more involved in the complete production of this film than the previous and wrote a script that was more meaningful for myself, I found myself more sensitive about how it was developed. It's turned out satisfactory and I am sincerely very thankful for everyone who contributed. But, to be honest, I've been left a bit gloomy. My life lesson is to understand that people have varying levels of commitment. To protect myself, my expectations, my dreams, ... I need to recognize that my commitment to things is different from another's expression of promise. I hate to say that I must withhold my trust until I am convinced of another's dedication, but I think that is the only way for me not to be disappointed...

Where does one find committers and doers? I need them to help keep me motivated.

Since I arrived in Darwin, my life has begun to feel like Guy Ritchie's "Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels" movie. It's not as though my life is in chaos but the spin I had weaved into it by doing nursing had left a daily taste of anxiety. I have met more people in my four months in Darwin than anywhere else I have been. Nursing life has brought me in contact with new friends as patients, doctors, nurses and other health professionals. Although a bit overwhelming at first (particularly in remembering names), I have developed a sensation that all the lives that have intersected and diverged from mine were meant to be and are contributing to something bigger and very sensible in their lives and in mine. It's a comforting feeling to know that lives (especially mine) are leading somewhere. Thank you to everyone I met (now and in the past) for giving me so much meaning in my life!
Pics of our most recent night at Throb (the only gay night club in Darwin... a frequent haunt of ours).